Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Journeying to the self

Merry christmas, everyone! Joyeux Noël!

Last night, I had dinner with Mr.J and his family. For me, it was a quiet dinner as I was too exhausted (from crazy christmas cake orders) to hold a proper conversation. Only spent the rest of the night, gazing into Mr. J's eyes coz it's been ages since we sat down together for dinner. I truly missed him. Both of us were in our little own bubble while his family and friends ate and yakked away in the same room.

Looking back, 2007 has been a spiritual journey of some sort for me.

I rediscovered the joys of quieting my mind with meditating. A few years back, I kept up a daily routine of meditating but it fizzled off after awhile. In June, I had a identity crisis where I constantly questioned myself on taking this path of making it on my own with this cake decor business. I learnt that it's much easier to be a nay-sayer than to be a creator of your own life and make your dreams happen.

One evening, I was ruminating and sulking when instinctively I reached for a book, which I had for years but forgotten, on manifesting your true desires by Sonia Choquette. In the book, she advocates a daily routine of meditating for 15 minutes to calm your mind and to stop all worrying thoughts.

Now, when I wake up in the morning I spend 15 minutes, taking deep cleansing breaths to refresh my mind and repeat the same step before going to bed. It works wonders. I'm calmer, more observant and happier.

One thing led to the other and soon, I found myself learning about chakras and other exercises to develop my intuitive side. It's a gradual learning process. Situations and things work out whenever I trust and act on my instincts.

I've gotten myself a chakra clearing CD which I listen to everyday. Strange but true, I actually felt my chakras 'vibrating' whenever I imagine them as different coloured balls whirling in different parts of my body. By balancing and clearing my chakras, I learnt to let go of all worries and fears about the future. As a result, I'm happier and more relaxed.

Chakras? Meditating? It is all very new-agey but who cares? They work for me.

Am looking forward to 2008.

~ Peace, love and joy to all my readers ~

Monday, December 10, 2007

On the move

I'm moving to a new place.

Moving to a new neighbourhood. This new place has a view, better security and it's close to Mr. J's place.

Never mind the choc-a-bloc traffic during peak time. Never mind that I'd be farther away from the family. Never mind that I have to pay toll to go to KL. Never mind that I'd have to start my life all over again.

I can't wait. It's a new beginning.