All I want for Christmas is

I've been too lazy to blog lately. It's the year-end Christmas plus school holiday traffic chaos in the Klang Valley.

The maddening crowd, the long queues and the never-ending frustrating search for parking at malls make me cringe at the mere thought of wondering if I should head to the mall. Dont' mean to sound like a Scrooge but I can't wait for Christmas and the school holidays to be over and traffic+shopping crowd normalcy to be restored.

I'm done with christmas shopping. This year, all my good friends get a year worth of magazine subscription from me. The fashionista gets Harper's Bazaar, the career-frenzied-working mum gets O magazine, the body-conscious gets Shape.

As for me, I have nothing on my christmas wish list. All I want for christmas is peace, joy, happiness, more insightful epiphanies and the complete trust to live my life intuitively.

Oh and Merry Christmas to my blog chickies - Anjali, Jelly Girl, Little Miss Drinkalot and Tiffanie. It's been a great year of blog sistahood!

Merry Christmas, everyone!

That's one new year's resolution done!

I've enrolled myself in a cake decorating course at the Malaysian Institute of Baking. Finally, after walking past the premises on several occasion wondering what it'd be like to take up cake decorating, I've decided to quit procrastinating and just do it! No more 'what ifs' in my life from now on.

This morning, I was at PJ State, sorting out banking matters and the school was just round the corner. So I walked into the baking school to enquire. The adminstrator was really friendly and nice. The school looks pretty good so far - a well-stocked cookbook library and an indoor balinese garden.

It's all set. I've registered myself for a cake decorating course starting on the first week of the year 2006.

Yeah, it's kinda like a new year's resolution, except that I'm weeks ahead of the New Year.

And you know what? I feel really good about this move. For the first time in months, I feel good about my decision.

Epiphany whoosh

Today, I had a moment of epiphany that lifted away the inert weight I've been reluctantly dragging around for the past 2 months. This evening, I was running errands at Midvalley- banking my cheques, paying bills, grocery shopping when I heard a soft voice whooshed inside my head for a split second.

"Honey, you gotta focus on what you want. Stop focusing on what you don't want coz you're diverting all your energies from what's really important in your life. Think of what you'd like in your life instead."

Now I realised that for the past month I've been trying so hard to get rid of all the drama queens, energy suckers, nay-sayers and people/situations who don't have faith in me and my dreams. As a result, I was so intent to making sure they don't exist in my life. It was "I don't want this. And I don't want that".

No wonder, I was morphing into a grouchbag. I was unhappy, weary and tired with every bloody single thing in my life. I FORGOT! Yes, I forgot what I would like my life to be like. Damn, you know those how self-help gurus say you create your reality on what you focus your thoughts on. Yes, it's so true.