Solitude antidote
Apart from the sparse and sudden bouts of sheer loneliness, I'm enjoying my total reclusion.
It's the best antidote to getting unstuck from a career which isn't going anywhere, from a social circle which is getting irritatingly repressive, from life which doesn't seem exciting anymore.
Every evening, I'd come home and the first thing I'd do is switch the phone off. I don't even watch tv now. I find the flickering screen distractingly noisy and unsettling.
So I read lots. I even found interesting websites to read- Salon.com, Vanity Fair, The New Yorker. I discovered a fine essayist, Joan Didion whose work resonates clarity and honesty (which is what I need at the moment). I also found a perfect french pear tart recipe.
Strange how a few years ago, I was yearning to have a flourishing social life with a wide circle of friends.
Now I don't even want to go out during the weekends. I'd do anything to stay home and spend quiet time alone.
It's the best antidote to getting unstuck from a career which isn't going anywhere, from a social circle which is getting irritatingly repressive, from life which doesn't seem exciting anymore.
Every evening, I'd come home and the first thing I'd do is switch the phone off. I don't even watch tv now. I find the flickering screen distractingly noisy and unsettling.
So I read lots. I even found interesting websites to read- Salon.com, Vanity Fair, The New Yorker. I discovered a fine essayist, Joan Didion whose work resonates clarity and honesty (which is what I need at the moment). I also found a perfect french pear tart recipe.
Strange how a few years ago, I was yearning to have a flourishing social life with a wide circle of friends.
Now I don't even want to go out during the weekends. I'd do anything to stay home and spend quiet time alone.
posted by Cupcake Queen at 6:49 PM
3 Comments:
i wonder when that solitude phase will hit me ... i am never totally comfortable with being by myself. Unless of course it's when i'm travelling.
I get like that too, sometimes I'm dying to go out and party with my friends, and other times, all I want to do is curl up at home with a good book. I guess it's all about stages in life. Enjoy the silence! :)
tiff- I've never felt more lonely than when I'm alone.
Jellygirl- thanks, I'm enjoying this silence. :D
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